I believe it is important for you to know how I arrived at a place of change.
It all started for me in 1999 when I was pregnant with my first child. My dad had just died, I quit my jobs, and I had morning sickness all day. I was depressed and I ate everything...everything.
During that pregnancy I gained 75 lbs, reaching 265. After I had the baby none of the weight disappeared. I had never been so large or unhealthy and I had no idea how to fix it.
The dieting began and my marriage began to fail. I had a brand new baby, lack of support, and when I looked in the mirror I did not see the real me, in fact, I didn't even know who I was anymore.
Over the next 3 years I had back surgery to repair a herniated disc and spinal treatments for pain. I found out I had degenerative disc disease and after a biopsy on a lymph node near my lungs, sarcoidosis. I spent a year on disability and pain pills.
I remember the day it all changed. I was sitting in a recliner and wondering what was going to happen next. What was I doing? At that moment I made the decision that I was done making excuses, done with the pain, done with the medication, and I was going to change my life.
Three years after my son was born I started a popular high fat, high protein, very low carb diet. I lost 65 lbs. I was feeling better about myself, but I was far from healthy.
After my second child was born I gained all the weight back and more.
Above are pictures of me at my highest weight, approximately 280 lbs.
I was miserable and uncomfortable. I felt like I was trapped inside a meat suit. Once I saw the pictures, I realized I had to make a change.
This time I would do it the right way, the healthy way.
To get here, I had to take responsibility. I had to own what I had become and believe I could change it, so that's what I did.
I got tough on myself.
I took pictures every two weeks to record my progress and it payed off.
I became organized and meticulous.
Most importantly, I was always prepared. Prepared to workout, prepared with good food, and prepared to stand up for myself and my health.
I have a long way to go, and I am determined to make choices everyday that offer me an advantage to reach my goals.
I didn't want to lose out on having pictures of myself. I was forced to look at who I was as a person and not just what I looked like on the outside.
I began to discover who I was and who I wanted to be. I knew I wanted to make a difference and I needed a plan. I also needed to be held accountable. A system and a plan would be essential.
I was helping myself and I knew that the studying and the research could bring benefit to so many more. I wanted to inspire and encourage the world. I thought I needed to wait until I was super successful and had attained the perfect body before I could help others.
After a lot of reflection and discussion with my team I realized that it would be more beneficial if those I wanted to help could see me go through the transformation and experience it with me.
How will I overcome the obstacles? (sickness, vacation, holidays, injury, kids, money, weather, negative thoughts, work)
As I begin this experiment I will be taking many photos to catalog weight loss and body changes. I will also include pictures of significant events and accomplishments. I will also post photos and video of martial arts tournaments I compete in.
Please continue to check for new photos and information regarding the BE ME experiment.
You can also subscribe to The Universe Rules Newsletter for additional information and inspiration.
Copyright 2009 The Universe Rules and The Demeter Corporation. All rights reserved.